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new journal xabby_babyx take a look, its so much hotter
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| i heard you fell into a rabbit hole |
[07 Feb 2005|03:38pm] |
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AGain, im kind of fucking pissed right now. Derek hangs out with nate like every day, I am seriosuly questioning thier sexualities. He pisses me off so badly like all the time. Today I went to school as usual oh yeah except i saw some kid running from a cop andgot tackled and restrained pretty harshly, i think the cop shouldve just shot him, he was such a little bastard. Yeah so then regular day and all i guess and then i went to go get my fucking permit again and after driving for like a half an hour we get there and theres a sign saying they werent giving out the tests today due to someones illness. Im just going to fucking run out in front of a bus and hope for the worst. Im in such a bad mood right now I can't even deal. I hope dereks having fun with his little but slut that he hangs out with every fucking day. But when his little but slutt had a girlfriend of his own he never hung out with derek. Fuck that.I just want to like kill him. kill...
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| and if it seems like an accident, a collage of senslessness you werent looking hard enough |
[06 Feb 2005|05:28pm] |
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yuck, im eating this lolipop thing and its way too sugary, totally anhialating my dear toungue. How time can move both fast and slow, amazes me. I kind of haven't wanted anything to do with anyone lately.maybe cause I only believe myself.sue me ignorance. seeing as I know whats best for me. whats right. Ive just got myself to blame, leave everything up to fate, when theres choices i could make. and my heart needs a polygraph, always so eager to pack my bags wen i really want to stay. Yeah so I went to the dmv on friday to get my effing permit and i needed my god damn birth certificate. the lady was such a bitch about it too. So i have to go back tomorrow. I hope im not working. Um, Oh yeah im getting a foreig exchange student too.. I dont know wether I can get a guy or a girl, I don't know which one I would prefer either because I havent really seen any hott french guys, and I heard of this girl having a female one that was really snobby, but it was funny because they would always just try to piss her off. I think theyre going to be hiring at my work again, but i'm kind of pissed because the new girl doesnt get weekends (which are shitty) and she gets the best weekdays. fuck that. I always get so pissed about working there. I only made 9 fucking dollars in tips on a friday night.. yeah it was dead but thats pretty fucking pathetic, and then the next day another uber pathetic 21. Eugh I don't even like thinking about it cause it just pisses me off. I guess everyones watching football? I hate football. kill me. Its wierd thugh, im not even like wishing I had something to do or anything right now. went over to dereks earlier.. I want to do the "go to colledge for your senior year of high school" thing. Im kind of sick of high school. Just because everyone there ind of pisses me off and is immature..most of the time.. i guess.. but thats probably why they have that "what is this high school" steroetype. I can't wait until I can drive and get the fuck out of this shit hole. agh the nature of this sickness. peace out kids.
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| ugh i need to clean |
[30 Jan 2005|05:44pm] |
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today I finished drivers ed, derek didn't come with because hes a fucking retard and had to sleep over nates as usual,. But he did have a rason cause his basement was flooded or whatever, but have you ever heard of couches? Also he went to some kids house and drank his little dying heart away and both him and nate got extremely sick because of it, good.. they need to learn not to drink so muc, well at least derek does. He always complains that he is fat but he isn't fat he has a beer gut, at 17... pathetic. Yeah so I'm getting kind of sick of having a boyfriend. kind of very sick of it actually. especially one that doesnt have the decency as to call you when he says he will, want to hang out with you. ever.. or get a job, go to school, learn how to drive. But what can you do? Find a new one. Exactly.Well yeah so I've been in a pretty bad mood the whole day. I did fall asleep around 3 o clock andwoke up at 7, now I know I won't be able to sleep at all tonight.. grreeat... and derek probably wont be calling either. Isn't this pathetic? and Im not even pms'ing... I want to get my license now, but I kind of don't because then I jut wont have anything to do, and I'll have my liscense and I will feel obligated to do something all the time.. I need friends
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| chya |
[22 Jan 2005|04:46pm] |
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Im so happy! I went and saw the Saab and now it is all mine and no one elses, i love it, its beautiful and I can't wait to actually be able to drive it...
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| i had a minute |
[22 Jan 2005|11:30am] |
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going to see my beautiful car! derek didnt call last night, im kind of worried about him, he hasnt called this morning yet either... thats not really like him. I don't know if im going to work tonight, i dont think I will because I know I will only make like 20 bucks in tips cause its a saturday and its gonna be dead cause its supposed to snow really bad i guess... my work hates me.. but its not my fault, and im excused until tuesday.. whatever.. i need to get a hold of derek, well, dont need probably, but I should.
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[21 Jan 2005|06:25pm] |
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ABOUT YOU...
[x] name = abby
[x] piercings = munroe
[x] tattoos = none
[x] height = 5ft 7
[x] shoe size = 8.5
[x] hair color = like orangey browney blonde, I think its brown though
[x] length = like 3 inches past shoulders
[x] eye color = blue
[x] siblings = kathryn fredrica
LAST...
[x] movie you rented = don’t remember
[x] movie you bought = none
[x] song you listened to = don’t remember
[x] song that was stuck in your head = the list-metric
[x] cd you bought = ipod baby
[x] cd you listened to = um…. Ipod?
[x] person you've called = mother
[x] person that's called you = derek
[x] tv show you've watched = that 70’s show
[x] person you were thinking of = katie, because I stole this from her lj
DO...
[x] you have a boyfriend or girlfriend = yepp
[x] you wish you could live somewhere else = france maybe
[x] you think about suicide = nope
[x] others find you attractive = maybe?
[x] you want more piercings = yeah, my bridge
[x] you drink = not really
[x] you do drugs = no
[x] you smoke = gross, no
[x] you like cleaning = oh god no
[x] you like roller coasters = the only time I went on one my spleen hurt cause I had mono, and it was superman so no… not really
[x] you write in cursive or print = its weird, half and half maybe
[x] you carry a donor card = nobody wants my organs anyway
FOR OR AGAINST ...
[x] long distance relationships = against
[x] using someone = against, sometimes
[x] suicide = against
[x] killing people = for, if they deserve it
[x] teenage smoking = against, cause it’s smelly and I think it makes people look trashier
[x] premarital sex = for, why would it be wrong?
[x] driving drunk = against.
[x] gay/lesbian relationships = it doesn’t bother me
[x] soap operas = against, definately
FAVORITES ...
[x] food = whipped cream… is that food?
[x] thing to do = horsebackride
[x] things to talk about = lately, my car
[x] sport = horsebackriding
[x] drink = raspberry lemonade
[x] clothes = anything that fits right…
[x] movies = amelie, virgin suicides
[x] band/singer = the unicorns, postal service, the strokes, metric
[x] holiday = birthday….. sometimes
[x] car = 99 Saab 9-5
HAVE YOU ...
[x] ever cried over a guy/girl = like wether I could have them? No… have they made me cry? yea
[x] ever lied to someone = mhmm
[x] ever been in a fist fight =yeah in seventh grade and I kicked her ass lol.
[x] ever been arrested = not that I remember
WHAT...
[x] shampoo do use = eh… tresemme? Anything with color care.
[x] perfume/cologne to use = tommy hillfigger true star, estee lauder’s paradise, clinique’s simply, or vitorias secret’s vanilla lace.
[x] shoes do you where = different every day.. my favorites are my chinese laundry ones, and my “shakira boots”
[x] you are scared of = the dark, deep water, spiders, snakes, and sharks
NUMBER...
[x] of times i have been in love = once
[x] of times i have had my heart broken = never
[x] of hearts i have broken = I don’t know
[x] of guys/girls i have kissed = 7-10
[x] of guys/girls i've slept with = one ish
[x] of continents i've lived in = one
[x] of drugs taken illegally = four
[x] of people i would classify as true friends = theres no right answer to this..
[x] of people i consider my enemies = none
[x] of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = thirteen, when I was little
[x] of scars on my body = three
[x] of things in my past that i regret = one…..but its not like I can change it...I hate regret
FAVORITE ...
[x] disney movie = alice in wonderland
[x] word = baby
[x] nickname(s) = abby?
[x] guy name = milo
[x] girl name = lyric
[x] eye color = hazel
[x] piercings = munroe, on some people
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE ...
[x] funny = no
[x] hot = nope
[x] friendly = when I want to be
[x] amusing = no..
[x] ugly = without makeup
[x] loveable = nobody does so obviously not! Lol… maybe?
[x] pessimistic = sometimes
[x] optimistic = the rest of the time
[x] caring = about certain things
[x] sweet = if I have to be
[x] dorky = maybe?
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| dude guy, my ass is not there.. |
[20 Jan 2005|09:10pm] |
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It's really hard to sleep when you roll out of bed around 1pm. Bleh, so this morning I woke up kind of mad at derek cause he has been a little PMS'y lately and im sick of it. I don't need to take someone being mean to me, I am not that desparate. (and believe me I am a big enough bitch to let him know this too...lol) But yeah so he didn't call either, when he said he was going to when he woke up but eventually i found out that he was at nates, as he always is when hes being irresponsible and im looking for him. But then he called me and invited me to go to the mall with them, which made me not very mad at him at all.. for some reason all I do is forgive the kid, maybe it is that I get mad too easily? well at least thats what he says, but it does make sense because I get mad at him way more than he gets mad at me.... but I mean isn't that the chick's job? And also, what would I do to make him mad? Well at least im not so much of a dumb ass as to get caught doing things that he would get stupidly mad at. whatever... it doesnt really matter. Yeah so blah blah nothing interesting happened. went to mall. went to gay tutoring so i could get some make up work done. went to drivers ed. about that thugh, I don't think derek is going to go alone because every time he has gone, I have been there, and MJ has been there and some other girl that we talk to is there, and none of us are going to be there past next thursday and he wont be done by then. I can just see it happeneing now too... like if I'm not like come on were going to drivers ed get in the god damn car, he'll just be like I don't feel like going today... and never finish. he only has to do 3 days of 2 sessions alone... but he wont go, I know it. Thats one thing that I really hate about his personality, he will never do anything for himself, and I feel bad because I am pushing him to go to drivers ed, and pushing him to get his G.E.D. and a job, but thats only because I don't want to see him end up without all of that stuff.. I don't think I would want to see anyone have to live like that, If I could I would get him to go back to school, I think that would really change what he is going to come out as, but I didn't meet him soon enough I guess... and I wouldnt try to make him go back now because he would be a freshman... and I wouldn't want to be a 17 year old freshman.. would you? I understnd that I am not his mother, and some might say that he can make decisions on his own, but I mean.. he has obviously made some mistakes.. but do I have the right to tell him what to do? I feel as if it is my responsibility to push him to become a better person and have more opportunities,I don't know wether or not to feel as if I am doing him any favor, or giving him the boost he needs by forcing him in the direction for a 'more successful' life, sometimes I think that I shouldn't tell him what to do, becuase I don't have the right, i mean, I am only his girlfriend, big whoop, high school relationship...i dont want to be like this naggy bitch telling him when to wipe his own ass, but its for his own good right? who knows.. i need tea
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| where the hell is my ipod..... |
[19 Jan 2005|12:57pm] |
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last night I had a dream I beat the crap out of some chick cause she was hanging all over derek. Like any chicks would hang all over him.. haha.. no i love him hes beautiful. But it was quite amusing although i am not barely as strong in my dream as in real life... i hate that in dreams where you cant like run as fast or pick things up, I also hate when you wake up and think it's real and your all pissed off. Wow, I just realized that I've been having a lot of dreams about other chicks and derek.My subconscious is a raging jealous mess! Maybe I should do some research! But I dont think theres anything really going on because hes with me from the second he calls and wakes me up in the morning until i go home, and then he even calls several times to wake me up when i have just fallen asleep.. bastard.. lol. I miss him now, don't you hate that when you think about someone and you miss them a wicked lot but then when they are there it doesn't even really matter.... heh... of course that doesnt happen.. im just um.. saying. YEAH, well my daddy is buying me a car in like two weeks but I already know the one I want, it's a 99 Saab 9-5 and its BeaUtifUl! I can't wait... now all I have to do is wait for my god damn liscence... kill me.. well, Ive got somewhere to go. Peace out
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| take a trip join me in the sun but not really though, cause I ain't having fun |
[13 Jan 2005|07:04pm] |
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I really wish I had a band again. My own band though that I could have some control over. Today I woke up to derek at my door... i was quite pissed because I got no advanced call saying that him and christian and nate were comming to get me. I knew it was all happeneding but I made sure he knew to wake me up prior to them showing up at my house and I guess he did call my phone but I didn't hear it. He also woke me up last night... the first night that I had actually gotten to bed earlier than 3 am in like weeks. (the medicine I was taking for the mono and shit was making me like completely unable to sleep) and then he was telling me how it was 6 in the morning.. when it was really only like 2? hes a wierd one. I get so confused when Im sleeping and someone calls me though. I have no idea what im saying and i probably will have no clue that the person even called me, in the morning. Yea so we all went to kevins house and played music. It was alright, I kind of hate playing bass though. My fingers are like dead now. especially mr pointer. Yeah, but it was good actually getting out of my house, and of course, playing music. Christian is the nicest kid ever. So after that we went to nates house and I made dereks little myspace thing better because I am a genius.. chya! wont you let me be bottled up at this time?wont you rescue me? you shoulve been here last night and heard what the big dipper said to me.. click it bitches.... myspace.com/milogreeneband
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| she never seemed to cry she never got upset and one by one they came and one by one they left |
[09 Jan 2005|10:34pm] |
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I don''t know if I'm very happy. I don't think I am. Today I dyed Dereks hair and it doesn't look that much different. I also went to the doctors just to be told that I can't go to school for another week and then after that I can Try half days.. I feel fine. I am missing exams. I am so fucked over in school right now. Yeah but while at the doctors office I came out and my beautifuls were all there, including mom. lol. I have missed her indeed. I feel like i'm missing out on like everything .. i hate it. Yeah so I am quite sleepless, although I have mono. I should be like disabled right now but whatever, Ew i hate how when you go to the doctors .. well at least when I do.. They like poke my stomach and my spleen just to hurt it. bitches. My doctor is crazy though, i love her. I told derek to call early tonight because I thought I was going to go to bed, but yeah.. its 10:40 no call yet.. of course.. he is oh so dependable. I wish he would just treat me like I am of actual importance to him, like do special things for me and stuff because I know I do a hell of a lot for him. Its even like a chore for him to come over my house.. Im not going to like rant about him though, he does plenty good also I guess. I want to make a lot of money. I am not feeling myself,
im sick of seeing you cry or wasting all your time on someone who will never care enough to make you feel loved to make you feel safe
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| you were right when you said all that glitters isn't gold. |
[08 Jan 2005|05:59pm] |
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I love glitter, yess. Um No one seems to be happy.maybe spring will be happy? I think that it's cause at this time last year we weren't all obsessing over our relationships and we just went out to have fun, and it was great, and we had interests in other things. Other things are greattt... I need a band again, too bad I have no one to play with, ooh me..Life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone. You were right when you said, this is the end. My pants don't fit anymore because all these fuking medications that I'm on just make me want to like vomit after one bite of food. Even if it is the best cake ever. god.. i hate it because I want it so bad but I can't eat it, and then I just throw it away cause after I do try to eat it, it just makes me sick. Fuck do you ever think about it? I need to find a life, friends, not that I don't have any but I don't hang out with them. I need to finish drivers ed, I need to finish a lot, too bad I threw that cake away , just, just kill me please. Tomorrow I go to doctors and they tell me wether or not I can go back to school again but I just recieved notice that I am failing 5 out of my 7 classes and I haven't been in school so I am going to be totally unprepared for mid terms which are like.. next week. I think I might actually have to be home schooled, mother would love that. I don't know if it would be good or not. I want to go to school to see people. But it's not even like those people matter. Well most of them don't. I think I would jut feel wierd about not having like, a senior year.. cutting my high school time in half. And then what kind of stories will I have to tell on those gay vh1 clip shows *my life in high school* or little pumpkin,lyric,lotus and mary jane? Yeah 4 kids.. thats not happening. Lotus actually sounds too much like Louis or Locusts. haha .. poor kid. I want to go to school but I really dont...my life is such a bore, or maybe everyone thinks that. If so where are you entertainment?
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| she goes above and beyond her call of duty she is a slut but her ex thinks its sexy |
[05 Jan 2005|06:11pm] |
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Yeah so ysterday I got really sick with my spleen and all.it has inflamed to like the size of a football. So yeah I had to go to the emergency room and get an Iv.. I am totally needle and hemophobic, this was like the worst. Then they kept having to inject me with stuff, including morphone becuase I was freaking out... the fucking tube was busted and whenever they would put shit in my blood would come out...disgusting, so then i had to get a cat scan of my spleen because they thought I could have been internally bleeding, but they had to put dye through the Iv and the tube like exploded on me an yea.. blood.. my arm .. like spouting.. while im half way in this catscan thing.. thank god I had that morphine because all I could see was tigers on the cieling. So then after that whole shin dig with the retarded nurses I was so fucked up, and it was great becuase it was totally legal.. and free.. Nice. But yeah so then the doctor just said that my spleen was extremely swollen but I would be given shit loads of meds for it, and I am like not allowed to run or anything. And no one even gives a shit i fucking hate the bastard people I surround myself with. Like my fucking mom is asking me to like.. help her with the groceries, what a fucking dumb ass and then when I was like dying to sleep derek was complaining cause he was bored, he can't be one of those sweet boyriends that comes over and tries to make you feel better he just complains and doesnt let me sleep and then says that im being a little bitch and that he wants to go home... yea, im the luckiest :) i am in such a bad mood i just want to kill everyone. I should just go jump on my trampoline and wait for internal bleeding.
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| i just can't look, it's killing me |
[04 Jan 2005|09:14pm] |
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I am so bored I am like.. on the verge of death, no lie. It's sad becuase I want to go to school. and then afterward i want to do something. I shoul have never gone to the doctors, next time i just wont and it'll be good because I will chose to suffer, i enjoy it. seeing as its like a repeating pattern in my life, but never visible, bitches...so calmn and so patient yet calculated. Ahhh the highlight ofmy day was jell-o which, once I ate, made me feel nauscious. It was only ten calories though which is good.. but I don't see why I care whether im a fatty or not, I WiLL NEVer be a supermodel.. kill me.. I think im too short, and not pretty enough. And Im seriously not looking for pitty when I say that i jut really believe it. Nobody likes a child who complains and I won't be that child anymore. I wish I could just sleep, I fucking hate this. I am annoying. Your annoying. everyone is completely self consumed, i hate it. I hate when I do it too... When all I can talk about is whats going wrong with me and dont' give other people the time of day, I try not to. Nobody good is online..or signing on.. but who is good? you'll never know.. although i know.. we all have those people we just seem to set apart..im so wrong
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| theres a saltwater film on the jar of your ashes, i threw them to sea but a gust blew them backwards |
[03 Jan 2005|11:13pm] |
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Today some kid that I dont ever talk to but am kind of aquainted to (like once) came up to me and said "your so beautiful. You're like the most beautiful girl in this school." it made my day.. although i don't think its true.. but i mean.. what am i going to say to that.. i thought he was going to like hug me..I just said thank you,laughed nervously(as always) and continued.. yeah..im probably a bitch but oh well. So today I found out that I really did have mono, but also had strep on top of it. It's so wierd though because I can't sleep, can't eat and I don't feel any pain. It's almost like im just heartbroken.. but Im far from it. Derek and I are getting along great.. amazing.. i love him. I realized that there is no point in like beasting him becuase he always has a logical reason that levels out his wrong doing. and I have become understanding, not to the point where I am being walked all over but into this insanely happy medium that i thought most impossible to reach between us. OH Weeell.. So after I found out I had mono and strep and realized that I would be tracked down by the US Medical society if I ever fathomed bringing my smallest toe within 400 feet of a healthy specimen, I would be shot and killed... I decided to buy a gamecube thing(its like the only one they had left at toys r us) and um.. Need for speed underground 2 which was like 50$ so it better kick major ass.. yeah.. I cant go to school for like another week and a half at least.. which really doesnt bother me but that also means that I won't be able to have a life, and only be allowed to stay, sickly, (WHEN I AM SO ALIVE AND WELL)on my couch.. for yes, that entire week and a half... kill me ... derek has ipod.. i need it.. badly.. like death, ah, misery. Ok well im going to go play video games like a loser.. because I can't sleep.... and I have mono.. again....... and i don't feel a thing....... I am just fucking insane, I think Im just used to dealing with everything.. I can deal with anything... if I have to ... I hate it when people act like they can't. God, That kills me. Get your way, annoying, you'll never survive.
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| this remix is effing great |
[02 Jan 2005|09:32pm] |
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yeah man, new years party was alright a la house. derek problems like always though.. he upset me as always and the second those guys at the house hear that you are *on a break* (when your not really) with your boyfriend they like..beg you to make out with them... litterally .dan wilkinson (and hes beautiful) kept trying to stick his tounge down my throat(along with every other mildly attractive female there) but i said no way jose because i love derek, more than anyhing, deep down.And derek is the most beautiful... We have been getting along great too lately when we ususally fight. I have just learned to be more open minded.. and im sick of fighting with him about smoking when i do it to. i am a hypocrite.. yeah.. i love my apollo love rocket, yeah , you know what im talking about.. .. chya.. old world underground.. god you metric, you are pretty amazing.. i wish I had a band again. I wish I had friends again. Its crazy though because the more I say that I fucking hate people, the more they try to make me like them.. its actually quite great. I don't hate it. I don't really hate anyone actually though.. Sometimes I just feel like being a bitch though.. actually... most of the time.. especially when I don't REeaally like you. I want to go to lazer tag. I miss my two old best -guy- friends. hate me now though, I would too. Yeah well I'm getting mono again? GO figure.. but I love mono, gets me out of school. I wish I had someone to work for me tomorrow.. cause my throat looks like a vag.. need to change my little background and shit.. to the unircorns! woO that would be sick.. must consult the sister, seeing as I am illiterate to this shirt.. illiterate in general.
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| this is a wicked awesme song dude guy |
[24 Dec 2004|06:19pm] |
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this is the moment that you know, that you told her that you loved her but you don. touch her skin.. and then you think that she is beautiful but she dont mean a thing to me. I spent two weeks in Silver Lake he alifornia skun cascading down my face there was a girl with light brown streaks and she was beautiiul but she didnt mean a thing to me. I wanted to belive in all the ords that I was s[peaking as we moved together in the dark ,and all the friends that I was telling her all the gracefull mispellingsand ever bite i gave then left a mark and tiny vessels oozed into your neck and formed the bruises that you said you didnt want to fade but they did and so did i that day... All I see are dark grey clouds in the distance moving closer with every hour so when you ask 'is something wrong?' i think your damn right there is but we cant talk about it now. So one last touch and then youll go and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more but it was vile and it was cheap and you are beautiful but you dont mean a thing to me. i was just listening to this song and felt like typing all of the words.. yeah
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| what bitches |
[15 Sep 2004|09:16pm] |
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Um. Today I realized that i fucking hate school due to the fact that my english teacher is out to fucking get me. She gave me a 67 on a little like 'getting to know you' project when mine looked like i think everyone elses... I do not approve of her bullshit grading style... fucking gay. Im already wicked uber sick of school and I hate it. I think my mono is striking back and that would be awesome.. you know people can have it for up to a year if the dont heal all the way and shit and I DEfinately did not heal all the way seeing as all the days that I stayed home sick I would leave the house as soon as everyone left and go to dereks. I fucking hate like everything right now... I dont feel like me.. but oh well .. peace out nigs
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[13 Sep 2004|07:17pm] |
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Yeah so today i wentto school and it was really boring and stuff as always cause it sucks and like... it just does, everyones so immature it seems and i want to bust the fuck out of there.. So yeah after school I took some bus to Dereks and we spent like a whole three minutes together doing nothing. And then later I had to go to an ortho oppointment but it was gay cause they didnt do anything..waste of time.. and then i had to go home and get dressed for work and then went to work and rob rebel came in and signed an application thing and im almost posiive hes going to get the job because we have like no bussers and they might fire one of the 3 that are left becausethey are really slow and shit. It might be fun working with Rob rebel i wish derek would get a job there but hes been lazy. Hes not really looking for a job and I guess bussing tables and doing mindless shit like that seems like a little too much of an effort to put in for him. Also I dont know if it would be a good idea opr us to work at the same place because the schedule would change and I would like only have days off the days that he was on... but we ould work together on weekends... sorry for the thinking out loud. Im nticing that I can type really fast and its awesome. yeah.. typing... Its funy how like olde generations are mostly computer illiterate but they think the kids have no idea as to whatthey are doing and try to fix shit on the computer but the kids know better than they do... just.. yeah.... its really not that funny or interesting but it wa just a thought cause that pisses me off and it shows how dults think that they know o much more than kids.. although thier educations have sort of expired and ours are still flourishing... yeah...right ... my education is bullshit, we learn such non applicable education.. fuck the school system.. I need to go to fucking drivers ed caue everyone here complains that i need rides everywhere and shit but elizbeth wont even sign me up for drivers ed.. it mkes no sense.. i give up.. This is kind of long andkind of pointless but isnt that the point of this livejournal thing anyway... no.... what is the point? I dont relaly undestand why you would want to post exact events in great details to people who really do not give a shit... i know i dont give a shit as to what other people do every day.. maybe you people do... whoever you are... so therefore i will keep posting only to entertain you.. and maybe one day ill be a star.......................yea.........Speaking of stars as in movie stars my sister is going to be in commercail and she read the corny script to me about how shes in a night club and then some dude comes up to her and asks her for her number *cause that happens ALL the time .. right?(ok maybe im just not hot or something)* But yeah.. so then shes like where do you cut your hair and he says something about his mom doing it for himand shes like Woah.. I only go out with guys that get thier hir cut at lahblah blah something salon. wiked.. gay.. she even thinks its gay and its funny how its actually gonna be on like mtv and shit. Why cant these people come up with anything better like heres how I would make the commercail.. Setting** Nursing home/Day Care (action) All the little childrenare playing with the old people and then all of a sudden some guy omes inand bombs the fucking place like its Japan or something and then the guys just like.. wow old people are terrible drivers and they smell like yogurt and moth balls...and kids just fucking suck cause thier all dirty and they drool and shit ... and then um everyone agrees and so no one is mad... and then theres an ad for the salon or shoes or something gay.. thats how to make a commercial... cause i would so pay attention... I am tired.. and my headache is going away so hopefully im going to go to sleep.. i need to shower.. like badly I think Ill do that first actually cause i know Derek will be calling like an hour afer I finally get to sleep and then it just wont count, that whole 60 minutes.. you know what i mean... i hate being woken up when I have somewhere to go in the morning. Why cant he just be at home? gay woah....this is like a novel ....
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